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 I need to throw myself directly back into creating more stuff so I don't have brain-space to feel bad that I for nebulous reasons I don't understand struggle to drag readership to my fics and I don't know how to change this.

wtf am I going to work on writing next?  Do I attempt another thing for a bang-type event or say fuck it, I'm going to work on one of the many niche things I've been backburnering because they don't fit any bangs' remits well enough, or I don't think they'd make the minimum word count because I'm concise like that?  Do I ban myself from seeing my AO3 stats page???

*sobbing*

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 !!! With rumours circulating about Avengers: Edamame, I realise what I should REALLY work on RIGHT THE HELL NOW is my thundersmash story just in case the damn Avengers movie COMPLETELY TORPEDOES MY SUPERIOR IDEAS WITH ITS DUMB CANON

and yes, I KNOW I can blithely ignore canon to my heart's content, sometimes it's just really HARD to.  Like, what if they do something else that's also an idea I wouldn't mind exploring?  Welp, now I can't, because I wrote this other thing, and unlike any of Marvel anywhere ever, I'm actually a big ol' stickler for continuity in my fics, because my brain finds it soothing to know you can pick up any of my stories and they'll all in some way connect to each other, rather than a tangled mess of canon-divergences with almost but not quite all canon in common, tangled together on my ao3 page like 15 sets of earbuds that have been unceremoniously shoved to the back of somebody's desk drawer.

Also I just really love Thor and Hulk and Bruce and there's not enough of those dorks - and especially not enough of Gentle Hulk Snuggle Times With Nice Thor, and I like Hulk, and I like the idea that he stays shirtless most of the time because he has a positive body image and not because he hasn't figured out how to get custom-tailored shirts from the big n tall store, and I like his unique speech pattern and the things he likes to do and the fact that he could punch an armoured van into a crumpled heap with the effort it takes a schmoe like me to collapse a soda can, but he's also gentle enough to play with newborn bunnies and he likes video games and has a specially-adapted phone to accommodate his big ol' hands for texting and also he drinks herbal tea and loves fresh tropical fruit.

And he is the CHAMPION of spooning.